Saying Good Bye to Jakes

The problem with raising horses is that you cannot keep them all.
Normally we try to sell our babies when they are ready to be weaned from their mother, at about 7 to 8 months old. You don’t get as much money for them, but then again – you don’t really put a lot of work into them either.
And, you don’t get attached.
Jakes was different. Is different.
He was our first boy from The Golden Stallion – a chunky, beautiful baby colt. He wasn’t as trusting as his older brother in the beginning and actually gave us hell in the beginning. But, he changed. We started working with him in the time that I was still a waitress so I had quite a lot of time to put into him.
I worked with him, I saw his potential and I liked him. At that stage of course, I knew that we would sell him so I managed to keep my distance emotionally. But, time passed and it began clear that people weren’t really interested. I started hatching a plan, an idea.
I’d keep Jakes for myself. I’d only be able to ride him properly in four years, roughly in the time that I would have to start thinking of retiring Basjan.
The timing was perfect and it felt like fate because we couldn’t find an owner for him.
But then one crawled out of the woodwork and my riding companion (and the actual owner of the horse) insisted that we sell him.
I argued. And pleaded. And begged but it was to be as she had her heart set on selling him. And, it was a good sale. The truth is that I’m quite proud of Jakes. Perhaps because of all the time that we had put into him, he had become an amazing horse. We have a quiet way of working with our animals. We insist on obedience naturally. But, we never shout, never hit. Never pull on them or do anything hard.
I like to think of the ones that we rear as pure. The one that we trained last year was so tame that we literally just put a saddle on him and started riding him (with work naturally). He never protested. Never reared or bucked or showed any signs of fear.
He was unspoiled, just as Jakes is.
They came to load him today and bitterness of it is that we didn’t even have trouble boxing him. He trusted us so much that he did this without protest, even though he had never done it before. He trusted us, and we let him go and that hurts.
His new owner is great. And, she has a lot of time and a lot of money to invest into him. More than we do.
But, it still hurts, because in my heart I had already seen him as mine.

11 thoughts on “Saying Good Bye to Jakes

  1. Antonio May 22, 2011 / 7:25 pm

    I’m sorry you had to say goodbye to Jakes, but it sounds like he has a good home. 😉

  2. Elmi May 22, 2011 / 10:21 pm

    I’m really sorry about Jakes. You know the saying: “life is what happens when we’re making other plans”, & that is especially true when it comes to what the heart wants. I hope you find peace about Jakes. And may you find a horse that is perfect for you, one you can truly call yours.

    • Alyssa June 7, 2011 / 4:05 pm

      Thank you elmi, looking forward to seeing u at NaNo. I still remember about our (my) debt.

  3. Ryan May 23, 2011 / 4:15 am

    I know it was rough for you giving up a horse you loved. I think he’ll miss you, too, but as Tony says, it sounds like he’ll have a good home, and he’ll be okay.

  4. Marsha May 23, 2011 / 4:41 pm

    I’m sorry hon. I understand completely. We took in a stray pointer who we swore we would give to some one who would take him hunting since the owner never came forward. When a serviceman who came to fix something in the house said he’d love to have Max, we just couldn’t give him up.

  5. suzy wong May 24, 2011 / 8:43 am


  6. Jenn May 24, 2011 / 2:29 pm

    I know how much you loved him, & I’m sorry you had to let him go. At least you know that he went to a good home.
    I love the picture of you & him, you look happy & he looks content to be in your company.

    • Alyssa June 7, 2011 / 4:07 pm

      Life is all about moving on – and, I have to say his new owner is very nice.

  7. hearandlearn May 27, 2011 / 5:25 am

    Here I am trying to catch up on your posts, and I find two close together, dealing with animals and loss. Themes like this I don’t need, as I live with my heart out on my sleeve when it comes to animals. It is why I could never raise animals to sell them. I’d be an emotional puddle. I admire you if you can control who or what you get close to. Nice post, and thank you for showing us your inner self. Take Care! Don

    • Alyssa June 7, 2011 / 4:20 pm

      Thank you very much Don. Sadly it seems to hace become the theme for the month. But there you go, my life is still richer.

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